Today I embark on a new journey – my first ever women’s retreat with McKinney Fellowship!
I have heard from our life group that these retreats are not-to-be-missed. They are amazing. You laugh, you cry, you create memories and legends that live long after the retreat is over. I am really looking forward to this, but am a little apprehensive at the same time.
You see, to be honest, I have lots of “friends” at McFBC. Lots of people know who I am. We share a brief conversation on Sunday mornings. We are in Bible Study together. We are in Life Group together. We’ve shared prayer requests, studied God’s word, and even planned ministry activities together. We’ve met at Starbucks for coffee or had lunch at a nearby restaurant.  We comment on each others’ Facebook walls and blogs.
But the fact remains that most of them don’t truly “know” me. I can’t honestly say I have a deep friendship with any of them. And way down in that tiny little corner of my heart, I’m lonely. I’m longing for a friend. A true friend. A *real* friend.
I know, it’s only been a year. And friendships like that take time to develop. Time to grow. Time to invest in one anothers’ lives, loves, and passions. I’m willing to be patient. But the waiting is hard. And sometimes, it hurts to have to protect my heart from jumping out too quickly.
So I’m looking forward to this weekend. To being overwhelmed…with whatever God has for me. To experience fellowship. To develop new friendships. To share, to listen, to grow.
Oh, and to eat lots of chocolate, too.