I’m tired. Physically, emotionally, mentally…I’m drained. The past week has been a whirlwind of activity, responsibilities, commitments, and information. There’s been too much to do, too much to learn, too many places to be, too much to remember. I’m dizzy from all the spinning.
I’m tired. In the past week, I’ve averaged 3-4 hours of sleep per night. Whether due to my own restless mind or because of circumstances beyond my control, there truly has been no rest for the weary. I’m frayed and unraveling.
I’m tired. I don’t feel much like being grateful this morning. It’s too early. I should still be in bed, getting a few more minutes of much-needed sleep. But I know it is precisely at times like this I need most to be grateful…to remind myself of the good in spite of the dizzy, the fraying, the unraveling. Things like:
- God is in control. That spinning wheel isn’t spinning on its own. It’s rhythms are neither random nor unplanned. The Master weaver sits behind every turn, masterfully creating a work of beauty. Today, I am grateful that I can trust God’s plan.
- God cares. God knows where we are. He knows what we need. He knows that I’m frayed and unraveling. And – most amazing of all – He cares about every bit. In His tender care, He can bind up those frayed ends and weave together those unraveling threads. Today, I am grateful for God’s compassion and love.
- God is in the details. God is a Master designer. The consummate Artist. The author of creativity and resourcefulness. He made the world out of nothing. He took a shapeless, lifeless universe and brought forth a spectacular array of life, beauty, and energy. Who am I to think that He can’t take frayed and unraveled threads and use them for His design? Today, I am grateful that God can take my brokenness and make it beautiful.
I’m tired. I’ll probably be in a fog most of the day. And there’s still too much to do, too many places to go, too many things to remember. I’m sure I’ll forget something. I’m sure by the end of the day I’ll feel overwhelmed and exhausted. But knowing that God is in control, God cares, and God is in the details will get me through today.
And that alone is enough to make me grateful.