I’m still doing a lot of waiting, the only difference is I’m in the same room as Matt and we can actually see each other!
Matt’s doing well after his surgery. He had a good day yesterday, and is up and moving around relatively normally today. He’s still stying in his gorgeous new dress, though he ditched the shoes (guess they made his toes hurt) for some funky Tarheel-blue gripper socks and the hat, and he has a lovely piece of bling (aka a JP drain) hanging from his neck, not to mention the colorful array of bangle bracelets adorning his wrist.
And then there’s the stuff you can’t see. The stuff we’re learning more and more about every day. Like the fact that it’s confirmed that he DOES have lymphoma. No maybe about it. We’re still not sure what type, but we can now say for certain he has cancer. Also, the fact that it has spread. Maybe even more than we thought at first.
Matt will have to stay in the hospital one more night – possibly two – to allow the JP drain to do its job. We have to wait for the fluid output to reach a certain level before they can remove the drain and they won’t send him home with the drain attached. We haven’t seen our children since briefly Thursday evening, so I will pick them up from Grandma’s this afternoon and bring them up here for a couple hours of family time before heading home to our own beds.
I guess this is the beginning of a new normal for us. And though the news today isn’t as good as we’d expected, we can still trust that God is in control. He has a plan for us through this, and we know that He is with us, every step of the way.
Just like you said, God already knows how this one is going to turn out. All we need to do is trust him and look to him for guidence and peace. We need to keep our eyes on his. It goes without saying that we are here for you guys and we can do what ever you need us to do.
Knowing is the first step. I remember going through these same emotions with my Dad earlier this year. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!